Snowy Day

Here in Texas, we don't do much of Winter. This year, we are kind of getting one. It was icy yesterday, but luckily, I was off work. Patrick got an unexpected day off from work as well. We literally chilled out in my room all day, where it was nice and toasty. The littles came in and did homeschool. I cleaned a bit here and there. Ordered pizza. We ended the day with watching the Truman Show. It was a great day!

Today, it started snowing and the ice is still there a little bit. I fell this morning, on the extended back porch, while trying to get our doggie, Gizmo. He was barking so I pulled on his lead a little bit and thus the slip and fall commenced. I am okay, but I can feel a little tweak in my neck and back now. 

I am going to get ready for my day soon. I am serving, so that should be fun with a funky neck and back annoyance!

I don't like the cold. I don't like driving in the ice and snow. I do not like it here, or there, or anywhere. I do not like WINTER! ⛄

7 years later

 Only 7 years later...eh? Lots of changes in 7 years. There always is.

Right now, I live in a cool 4 bedroom house, that we are renting. Still in our little, but growing town. I have the 2 big kids and 2 little kids here with me and it is fabulous, as it should be. 

We are missing a crucial part of our life, and that is our dad (my husband). He died almost 2 years ago. We miss him all the damn time. It is hard to believe that this is where we ended up. It's almost like a finale to everything, except, we are still here and have to figure out how to go on without him. I don't like that this defining moment was the defining moment. Because, truly, there are other things in life that deserve recognition. But, you cannot get away from it being the center of your life, even 2 years later.

True Story

I did post on FB about how friendships were tough for me. And then I explained more about having hang out time with people. Lots of responses on how they felt the same or that they were astounded that I didn't know they were my friends. I needed to hear that!

I am going to make more of an effort to be a good friend. It looks like we ALL need it!! I need my friends to know that I think of them in such a positive manner!

Friendships

So, I'm on a new mission...to figure out this friendship thing. I love people, therefore, I love wanting to be friends. I meet and see so many wonderful people on a daily basis and think "Are we friends? Are we just acquaintances?"

Kind of sad, really. Sad that I feel like I don't have friends I can hang out with. I have an old best friend that I see every few months and we are like peanut butter and jelly - we can be best friends again and again after 10 seconds of seeing each other. I have two friends that I've always liked and we just went out for lunch the other day and we talk on FB quite a bit! That is super awesome. They are my friends.

But, the people I've seen for a couple of years, we say hi, we hug and we do the FB comment thing (if I comment, I truly mean what I say to them - I'm proud of them, Happy for them, etc.), but there seems to be something missing. Something.

Must. Figure. It. Out. If it's just because I'm me, that is really gonna suck.

Chaysing Rainbows

We are all trying to chase after a rainbow, aren't we? The hope that there is something more beautiful than what is in front of us. 

Some of us can be satisfied with what they have and others cannot. I am one of those who is constantly looking for change to satisfy a curiosity. Will the furniture look better over there? What kind of business should I start? Life will be better if A, B and C changes.....

Mostly, I am happy and keep a smile on my face. I love the things I do. I dislike some of the things I do. There are just some challenges that are unmet. I intend to change that this year!

So, join me on the journey of Chaysing Rainbows!